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Whew... chilleeee.....

I'm telling ya'll. A LOT of people on this server is braindead as fuck.

Global chat yesterday gave me a headache. Once again.

How in

THE FUCK

did giving advice 

count as me judging someone and shit

Bruh.... *facepalms*

What in the fuck? 

Bruh, people are fucking sensitive as fuck. Once again, I can't even be honest because now, apparently I'm judging someone.

??????????????

Wh-

What in the fuck????

Oh fuck no. I did not sign up for someone being a sensitive ass.

Listen. You signed up for my brutal honesty. 

You fucking take it.

You signed up for this shit.

I'd rather have someone be honest because I know that it will help me out

Than to have people pat my head and lie to me and tell me that I'm doing a good job.

Hell nah, Y'all giving headpats to the wrong fucking people.

And y'all wonder why people are down bad.

Nearly my entire life, I had to take brutal honesty so I've gotten used to it.

But y'all just.....smh...

I've said this in the advice video regarding drama.

and let me put this big ass bold letters, ok? ok.

  AS YOU GO THROUGH LIFE, YOU ARE GOING TO HAVE TO LEARN HOW TO TAKE CRITICISM. NO ONE IS GOING TO GIVE A FUCK ABOUT HOW SENSITIVE YOU ARE. YOU ARE GOING TO HAVE TO TAKE CRITICISM. THIS IS HOW YOU GROW AS A PERSON.

STOP FUCKING SUGARCOATING AND LYING TO SOMEONE'S FACE AND TELL THEM THE MOTHERFUCKING TRUTH AND IF THEY GET HURT THEN JUST LET THEM CRY IT OUT.

And honestly, if they don't want to learn then that's on them. I've been seeing this shit so many times that it's fucking annoying. Bruh, I hate even having to hold my damn tongue because of sensitive ass people. If I can take people scolding me, giving me shit, insulting me, criticism, then you guys can too.

Hell, y'all do it to me.

So, if y'all like to dog on me and do this shit to me, then you should be able to handle the same damn treatment.

I swear, a lot of y'all are some fucking children.

How the fuck did some of y'all graduate school. Cheating? Bribing? Oh wait, I keep forgetting that the school system is failing because even a person that can't even read can graduate. 

And that's exactly what I dealt with yesterday.

A person who don't want to fucking read for shit.

And then another person who flip flopped sides to try to please someone.

You know I hate a people pleaser and I hate a person who lies.

Putting on a mask and acting is fucking boring and pathetic.

That shit is stupid as fuck. I don't know how these people do it. It looks fucking exhausting and they look like clowns doing it.

I will never understand how the fuck these people can sit up here and lie to people on a daily basis.

That's sad as fuck.

Smh....I know this is going to forever be an issue but still.

I'm talking about the phrase "People are going to listen to what they want to hear, not what they need to hear."

Smh...

I don't know how much longer I can put up with that shit. I can't take it. I can't take people flip flopping. 

I can tolerate stupid shit now, even though it gives me a headache, but I can't tolerate fake shit.

Nah, that makes me want to leave. I can't stand a fake person. It makes me not want to be around them.

I can't do that shit. Imma need space if someone's gonna do that shit. You can do that shit in your corner and away from me.

Shit, if you gon' be fake. You can lose me and have your fun. I really don't wanna deal with that shit.

One person who acted like a sister and then was fake behind my back was enough. Oh no, scratch that. I've dealt with fake bitches, and I really don't want to fucking deal with more.

Bruh, this is why I'm kind of glad that some people hate me. 

Because this means that I have less of a chance of making new friends. Less people means less drama.

More people means more drama.

Shit, you hate me? cool. Just leave me the fuck alone and I'll leave you the fuck alone.

It's simple. You hate me? Don't expect me to be around you. All I ask is that you stay the fuck away from me.

Stay away from me and I'll do the same. You can talk shit and do whatever, so as long as you stay the fuck away from me.

G e t    t h e     f u c k    o u t.

But yeah, yesterday was a god damn headache. At that time, I wished that I was drunk and didn't remember that conversation.

Bruh, imagine trying to help someone do mechanics but they're not even reading a word you're saying.

And y'all wanna know something? This same person asked for help in global chat months ago. I tried to help him but he kept asking questions while I was trying to answer them. 

No, let me be more specific. HE ASKED TOO MANY DAMN QUESTIONS AND DID NOT READ MY ANSWERS FOR THE DAMN QUESTIONS.

Then, I tried to point him in a direction and what did his stupid ass do? His stupid ass went and bought red gear. The man skipped gear so now he's running around clueless.

And then someone had the nerve to tell me that it's not that big of a deal when they had issues about this shit in their crew and a raid too.

Shut the fuck up. You sound stupid as fuck.

Bruh, I cannot deal.

So, anyways, someone told me to help that person again. Know what I said?

"AHAHAAAAAA, when they don't listen for shit? No thanks, someone else tag in."

"Chiharu's mad at me for skipping gear."

No, I just don't want to DEAL WITH SOMEONE WHO DON'T LISTEN TO PEOPLE FOR SHIT. YOU ARE LITERALLY FUCKING UNHELPABLE.

I DO NOT WANT TO DEAL WITH THAT SHIT.

So since no one else wanted to help him, I tried one last time and I regret it.

This man wasted my fucking time.

And I do not like to waste time.

You either listen or don't.

Stop fucking asking for help if you're not even going to listen to the person that's trying to help you.

THAT'S WHY, NO ONE WANTS TO FUCKING HELP YOU. STUPID ASS.

Lord....then let's add on the fact that someone comes in like 

SkIpPInG GeaR iS nOt ThAT Big Of A DEAL

Oh but it was an issue when you realized that it was couple of your crewmates doing this shit.

I do not care. That made me facepalm. I don't give a fuck.

How about this. You're going to skip gear, at least know what the fuck you're doing or know THE FUCKING BASICS OF THE GAME.

Otherwise, Don't do this shit at all.

I'm, once again, not trying to tell someone how to play. I'm just telling people how it is.

BUT OH FUCKING NO, I'M JUDGING PEOPLE, RIGHT? Mmh. ok.

Anyways, shit didn't stop there. 

I even tried to give advice to someone who carries because they like carrying.

The advice will literally make their carrying easier. Know what I got told?

To stop judging and let them do them.

I was literally. trying to give advice. 

Bruh.

Hell nah. I did not sign up for this shit.

Not someone being a sensitive ass over me telling someone to upgrade their gear because they carry and if they upgrade their gear, then carrying will be easier when I know full well that the reason why they can't even upgrade their gear is because they spend on costumes.

Bruh....

Where's the door.

Harmless ass advice and then apparently I'm jud-

.....

This is some bullshit. Nah, yesterday was definitely bullshit.

I'm still recovering from the bullshit I witnessed.

I.... 

*walks out* Bruh, I'm done.

Edit: And honestly, fuck it. I'll figure out what to do. Smh....

Alright so...since everyone is clowning and encouraging gear skipping and I know I'm about to watch a whole bunch of people walk around clueless on how to do damage. 

I'm just going to do my usual job and fix the shit they fuck up by pointing them in the right direction when they get lost....as per usual.

*facepalms* .....

Whew lord... *facepalms* 

Y'all...the whole damn week.

The whole.

damn.

week.

People were saying and doing stupid shit.

Y'all know my post with the 2 videos in my YT thread? Well, there's one.

Global chat? when I was trying to be serious? Two.

Yesterday even. I was trying to help someone with gear progression because I see this person actually trying to gear up and then you had 2 people be like "just get this, just get that".

Bruh, and then I find out that one of the people helped the 4 people that was in that drama with that friend? try to skip gear.

I did nothin- no. I've done nothing BUT facepalm all this damn week.

Because once again, people encouraging gear skipping. There is a reason why I've been facepalming all this damn week.

Is because some of the stupid ass shit that have been said this entire week won't help no one for shit.

And y'all remember that debate about gear skipping on forums? And y'all know how the new players and returnees benefits was mentioned? Well, now I'm trying to tell the staff to fix that shit so that won't be an issue anymore.

*facepalms*.......

I've been so close to snapping but I'm trying so hard not to. Some of these people, I look after. And like I said, I hate snapping at friends but holy shit-

Don't worry, I'm trying to keep it together but it's hard when people doing stupid ass shit is 

C O N S I S T E N T.

Yes. Consistent. This is why I was so damn mad in the past, if anyone ever figured out. 

You know, when this happened?

Yeah. There's a lot of shit that I never got rid of. This is one of em'. Because I had a laugh at this shit. I laughed at how stupid they sounded. But I also facepalmed because no one really understands what I try to do for people.

That screenshot right there? Is a prime example of not even walking a mile in someone's shoes.

If you wonder, I'm over it but I kept it as a reminder of how much people really don't know me.

Because they don't. They really, don't.

And yes, still trying to help people, despite everyone either calling me a bitch, getting pissed when I call them out on the stupid shit that they do, pointing shit out that's a problem, all that shit.

And I still try to help because unlike people who claim that they like to help, I actually TRY to help. I actually TRY to understand people so that I can help better. Something that no one ever try to do.

No one ever understood why I actually got angry, and no one ever understood why I dropped people at the time. 

Which by the way, it takes a lot for me to get angry at a person and drop a person.

Most of the times that I've gotten angry, it was a build up. A build up of putting up with shit for a long ass time until I can't take it anymore. No one knew that at the time.

During that time, I've dropped people because I could no longer help them or they didn't want to be helped. Those same people that got mad that I dropped them went wild. But no one knew that at the time.

So yeah, I kept the picture as a reminder that nearly my entire life, no one ever understood my true motives and thought all kinds of shit about me.

Anyways, I'm glad we've reached the end of this week. Maybe next week will be better. I hope.

*reads my about me* Opening up about shit is one hell of a task for me. I'm usually either quiet about shit or telling my guild shit. 

I'm referring to the "don't talk much" part.

And I know. I talk in global chat. I watch global chat to watch over some of the people that I look after. That's mainly the reason why I talk in global chat, to be honest. 

If we're talking about C:C discord, I mainly talk when it's someone I'm comfortable with speaking to. I have an reaction here and there because some of the shit that people say in general chat be wild as fuck but you know how that goes. 

It's the same thing in global chat too. 

Other than that, I'm just doing my own shit. 

......*shrugs*

I mean...eh-

people are....eh-

That's literally it.

"....eh-"

I tried-

...GOT ON FACE CAM O/